October.

Now it's endless. I'm heavy on pretending it's ok that you don't want to take a chance and fly away from it, so I'll tape my wings back to my side.

So so sorry just come back for me... now.

Sick, sleepy, and always lonely even when I'm surrounded by so many people.


You look out over a glittering vision of stability, a promise of love, of prosperity and permanence. you desire all of these things intensely, but just as intense is your urge to turn and run; to keep sleeping on couches and having ephemeral relationships, and to own nothing that can't be left behind. -Kate Williams

Thank you for everything you don't even know you do.

Thank you.

'You have your dreams I have mine...'

I wish I could fast forward the next couple of years. I'm ready to write all the time, live in NYC, and change the world. I'm so ready to know all I need to know and be just who I want to be. I want to help people without knowing it, keep people off the cliff. I want to be able to make a lot of money so I can share a lot of money. I want to interview the people who have changed my life, so they can change someone else's. I have too big of plans to wait three years to get them started.

"I tore her up.."

pretty soon our hearts will stop beating. we won't feel pain or love again. new souls will walk above us. we can only leave one thing behind. we can never know the end of our own story.... we aren't aware of everything, only a few small things, soft skin, sound, color, and wind blowing in trees. there is a hush all around.

Throw yourself in the midst of danger but keep one eye open at night.

Rachael Yamagata.

B-e-a-u-tiful song.

Let my words, be your words. Let my thoughts, be your thoughts.

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith Jehovah, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope in your latter end. And ye shall call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. And I will be found of you, saith Jehovah, and I will turn again your captivity.
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