Frozen Lake

He took the time to type up his lyrics for me, what a guy!
<3




We thought we were invincible until the dreary night we lost control
Our angry words became an empty room, and for days and days I searched for you
Then I heard the news of what they'd done to you that last November
Is there something more in store for you and me
We'll start all over now, we'll make new memories
But I just can't explain exactly why or how
I lost you once before I cannot lose you now.
Tomorrow...

I'll follow your lead

I wish I had money laying around under a mattress somewhere so I could travel to places like Kenya or Ghana, or other parts of Southern Africa and help the children that really need it. I did my research, and helping would set me back over fifteen hundred dollars.... trying to do man kind some good is expensive.
I am heart broken that I can not go on this trip.

Some day, and that day can not come soon enough.





On a different note,
I came across this song in a shuffle today, and I forgot how great it was and how much i wish I could just simply mail the lyrics to a certain person I know. Then they would really know how i feel. Oh well.
Denison Witmer - I Tried To Make You Smile

In the voice of Stevie Nicks I feel young
And I become confused.
Listening back to Fleetwood Mac
And listen back to careful thoughts of you.

I don't want to lose your friendship now,
And I've been feeling insecure.
Maybe we just need some time apart;
Everbody does for sure.
Can you see how I tried to make you smile?

I've always known that I can't change my past,
But didnt know that I changed for the best.
Your responsible for what happens to you now;
The choice of what comes next.

So I'm not gonna say I've failed us both.
I never thought that way of you.
Maybe we just need some time apart;
And I dont know what else to do.
Was it wrong how I tried to make you mine?

My ears ring with that one line she sings in landslide now.
Its never been so true.
I have been afraid of change
Because I built my life around you.

I dont want to lose your friendship now,
But I've been feeling insecure.
Maybe we just need some time apart;
Everybody does for sure.
Can you see how I tried to make you smile?

So listen closely, I am singing for you...

A little over an hour ago it was still Halloween, and all day i kept thinking about my Uncle Ray.
It will be a year soon, and what a year it has been. I regained so many beliefs that I thought I had lost, I finally got to see two bands live that I had missed so many times before, I moved out of my parents house, started going to college at a real university, and made friends in the city. I traveled to Vermont/Canada! (christina<3), become a mommy to a new kitten, and saw the Phillies become world champions. He wasn't there for any of those things, in the physical sense anyway, and I guess I still can not believe it.
I am a firm believer in everything happening for a reason, and I know he was meant to be my uncle. He was meant to be the way he was, so I would know better. He was meant to leave us all when he did, so we would have an angel and know what it's like to really have to say goodbye.
To this day, I feel so bad for my mom. Loosing him was not easy, and a year later, it still isn't easy. I wish I could have taken that pain away from her, but I had my own pain to deal with. The pains of guilt, the pains of regret... all of which I still struggle with.
I know now how important it is to cherish the people in your life, even if they have done you wrong. I will always forgive, but in my own time. I miss him more than I thought I would, and more than others thought I would I'm sure. But I'll always have the ocean. There is no grave stone to visit and shed tears on... we have the jersey shore. I'll forever think of him as my toes hit the water and know he's apart of the ocean, as he always wished he'd be.

City of Brotherly Love.

It's a good day to be a Philadelphia resident. SOUTH PHILA represent! <3
We're World Series Champs. (This is all for you great grand-mom, I know you're excited up there <3xoxo)

In the end they'll be the only ones there

Ten years is a pretty long time, but I've enjoyed every single one of them.

you will always be mine

r.i.p baby bo.

Baby Bo<3

He's a very sick boy, today is going to be a long day.